31 December 2008
Surprised that Michelle actually smsed me asking if m going anywhere. Initial plan was to meet Zann to shop for some cny goodies at chinatown. Aww.. she cancelled the meet up because she said she was busy. O' darling, m sorry. I know that I'll never say that I wanna be home early if I go drink. Sorry 'bout it!
Meet up with Michelle at her house void deck and we went to Chinatown. We wanna sing at Kster. Was famished and we had mac, supper on Mitch. TQ. After she hung up the phone call, she looks worried sick. Because her boyfriend encounted some problems. So I offered to accompany her to look for him. N m glad, her boyfriend was fine. Wanna take cabby home myself, but Mitch insisted to send me home. =) Yepp, m back home only 2am this morning. But only manage to sleep at 3am+ :( Exhausted
M stationed at ORQ today, and I got scolded by customer. Nevermind, everyone even officers saw it... he was just trying to be ridiculous. N please, is new year eve. I guess m so suay. Hope 2009 will be a better year.
Tonight going to friend chalet, hmm... maybe taking a cab home after that. =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:26
29 December 2008
29 December 2008, Monday
This morning received call from Fo Mei she was down with sickness on one day mc. M so bored at work, but luckily time flies fast. Gonna knock off in less than an hour time. Thee!
Nothing much just that thought he couldn't call any more, but he called just when I was about to sleep last night. And it has been donkey years since we last chatted on the phone for that long. Kinda miss those nights.
All dearies, please take xtra of your health.
Hope u pps sickness subsided.
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:56
28 December 2008
28 December 2008, Sunday
Woke up pretty early this morning, cuz slept early last night. Sis reminded me to sleep by 11pm, to let the liver do the work. And eye bags had been getting much more obvious and not gonna let myself to party late if m not gonna remove the make up before sleep.
Have a good chat with Ryan in msn earlier on. Didn't know that he drinks as well. Hahas... what he's going through now is what I'm going through as well. We both drink because of the same issue. Bro, hope we'd meet out soon when you're back from your Korea trip. Let sis, buy you a drink eh?
Thanks for sharing your point of view as a man. Hahas, but sis did shared with you my point of view as a lady right? So enjoy your holiday and move on. Don't wish to hear you staying in the same spot the next time we meet up.
Cheerios!
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:23
27 December 2008
27 December 2008, Saturday
Guess Zann must be having a great day with her sister JJ. Hahas, been waiting for her to be online since home till now been 10 over hours. =( Aww... lovely see how badly I missed you.
Alright, I failed again not to think of him. Already tried hard not to, but how to when m all alone inside my room lying on the bed waiting for his sms/call? I know jolly well that he won't sms/call any more but why m I still deceiving myself?
Who's the liar? I knew you really dotes on the love one, by saying you're not a good man just not good enough to convince me to let go.
I dislike the feeling of having to hold on my tears when the surrounding reminds me so much about you.
M thanksful that you gave me plenty of chances to prove myself. But I always disappoint you. Pointless to ask for forgiveness. Don't know why... this r'ship seems to be all my bads. Tell me, how to please you? How not to make you angry? How to make you dotes on me like before?
You asked if m crying last night, and you asked me not to. But I m crying very badly now. But why m I?
Gonna be end of December, Jan you gonna be out of town will you call like before?
Just don't know how to move on...
I hope I'll luv myself more
22:29
27 Decemeber 2008, Saturday
Jasmine, thanks for being there for me yesterday night.
-.-"
Jasmine and I
I love her, my coming 9years friend
After the photo taking, Eric shouted: "Jialin..."
I hope I'll luv myself more
15:07
27 December 2008, Saturday
We should cheers last night for knowing each other for exactly 6months.
My purpose of going down to Plush is to finish up my martell and never go back there again. Couldn't find anyone to accompany initially, so checked with Celest'. But didn't know that she sat with you guys. Looking at the crowd there, I doubt they could spare Jasmine and I a seperate table. Thats all.
Don't make my friend drink especially when she just arrived less than an hour. Never like that, yes I couldn't drink very well but you saw it all, I controlled and never drunk infront of ur customer.
N damn him for touching Celest' and I, but I remembered that he was your potential customer thats why didn't kick a big fuss 'bout it. I really feels like giving him a tight slap when he cuddled me when I just arrived, and whats worse? Touched my tights? Did you saw it, my dear? I reminded him nicely that he has got someone waiting for him at home. But why...
I don't believe you found someone better, you're deceiving me. But nevermind, m perfectly fine with it. M not gonna pester you any more. Will find my way to return you back the 100bucks. Oh yah, no matter m drunk or not, will never disturb your family. You don't 've to worried 'bout that.
I hope there won't be a day that I blog 'bout m hospitalized. N I'll tried to love myself more after I get all the love I needed from my family and friends.
Zann, thanks for being there for me. Your smses always touched my heart.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:26
26 December 2008
26 December 2006, Friday
Suppose to 've a good sleep, but the drilling sound woke me up. Damn... lift upgrading, guess won't wanna take leave until the reno work completed. -.-"
I hope I'll love myself more and let go.
M only deceiving myself
Nobody will knows how I feel when you texted me if I had taken my lunch. Thought you wanna buy lunch for me. Hahas. Not sure if you'll, but m having a day off n I told you before. Showing your concern arh?
Had lunch with mummy, sister and lil' niece at Dian Xiao Er. Been spending excessively this month, but I guess I ought to pay the bill. Cuz sis paid for the one at Sakura last evening. Lil' niece was so mischievous that I got mad and left home.
I asked mom whats the meaning of the word that she just said. She explained, we chat a lil' about dad first met mom. Then mom asked, your boyfriend was the pub owner? I was like huh? No... he drinks at the pub after his work. Mom asked when you gonna introduce to us? Tonight? We go find him? Arghz... mummy stop it, stop it! I walked off and bill off.
I really hope there'll be one day the boyfriend meet my mom.
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:52
25 December 2008, Thursday
:+: the most important person, my dearest mom :+:
:+: mummy, lil' niece, and me :+:
:+: the sister whom I love quarreling with :+:
:+: hearts 'em :+:
:+: thanks for spending x'mas with me :+:
:+: they're loving larhs, so jealous :+:
:+: nice shot! :+:
:+: lil' niece and sister :+:
:+: me and lil' niece :+:
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:45
24 December 2008
24 December 2008, Wednesday
Last night party with Zann and Y'von was a great and enjoyable one. M sorry sister, didn't really catch up much with you. We shall meet up soon at Coffee Club eh? =)
Asked Gina who reserved the front tables, she said most probably is Eric. Then asked her to walk to the front and confirm. She said nope, first two tables nobody is sitting. Was kinda disappointed.
Don't know why, I just texted him if he wants to join us at Plush. He replied fast, didn't even notice it until Zann told me 'bout it. N he really came. =D
Tried to sort things out but he didn't said much either.
Had a shower and slept at around 4am+, this morning alarm rang and didn't know why he got mad when I said m going for shower. =( But at least he apologised when he came out from the bathroom. Left home at 7.45 reached taka 'round 8.10am so had our breakfast at toast box. =)
Tonight, I wanna party anyone?
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:01
21 December 2008
21 December 2008, Sunday
We were once colleague, and now a friend but why be so nice to me whenever m feeling low? I see myself in you. You tried so hard to advice and cheer me up. You tried so hard wanted to accompany me for a walk but I keep call off our meet up. M sorry, I just so afraid that I can't control my emotion when I let out my thoughts. N m so afraid that you'd only see me cry than smile.
You're indeed a thoughtful person. You know me too well that I won't step out of the house to buy something to eat. You called/you texted asking what I would like to have for dinner. But I replied nastly asked you not to be so nice to me. You said I've no choice because you already bought dinner for me and you're at my house void deck. I asked you to leave you said you won't until I go down and take from you. You said you texted your friends that you might not be meeting them, you'll not go home and is up to me that how long I wanna let you wait. I don't like you to force me. Really appreciate you for sending up to my sis place but didn't went out to take from you. Asked lil' niece to say thanks and she said you gave her a wink. You know something? She asked "Aunt, your boyfriend?"Hahas... how I wish Eric was the one.
Promise me there's no next time, because I promise you that I will not think so much.
Dinner tomorrow on me please.
I'm piggy, you're dog. We're Zhu Gou Peng You!
So funny, last night called you and I asked: "Zhu, where are you?" Your friend was so stunned. I felt so embarrassed and said I'm looking for Ming Da, let him know pig looking for him. Hahas.
Kelly, I couldn't hide it away from you last night. You know me too well. Hahas. Yepp there's nothing to be shy about for we're friends for decade! But I bet you girls sure do not know how to react when I burst into tears. You agreed too. Zann thanks for wanting to meet me up. But we didn't meet because I asked if you wanna see me cry and embrace me tightly then I'll go over. If not I'll meet you on Tuesday night instead. So I shall see you okies?
Shall 've an early rest tonight, guess I tortured my eyes too much today.
I still luv you
I hope I'll luv myself more
21:13
21 December 2008, Sunday
Slept only 5am this morning and I wished not to wake up so early, but was being woke up by mom. Arghz... tried to keep myself occupied at home, n not to think so much. But I just couldn't help not to think of you.
It all started with the toast of drink. You know you look good in the pink shirt that you wore the first time we met. I heard you asking Frxcem "Does she've a boyfriend?" and Frxcem replied: "Don't know you ask her."
I love your smile that evening when we stood outside chillz bar. Holding on to my hands and I hinted you to ask. Thought you would never be bother about me at the chalet. But you came in to the room and asked me to be out when I had enough rest. You make me feel so honoured when you introduced me to all of them. Sitting next beside me, cuddling me m just so proud. I was taken aback when you puked, didn't know that you drank so much that night. But you were still sober enough to lock all the doors when they left. We went into the room, you pass me the Bank of Love cheque. You said you wanna pass me two but because I didn't go out during the dinner time I only got one from you. Thought we could have a good chat through out the night but you were feeling so terribly that you was fast aslept. I didn't had wink that night because you was coughing so badly. I went searching for boiled water in the kitchen but there wasn't any except the one I got from the water dispenser. It was so hot that I stood outside the room blowing it for you. By the time it turns warm, you already stop coughing. Wished that time could just flies a lil' slower. Love being embraced by you tightly when you woke up in the morning.
Didn't know whats wrong with me to get upset over the silly question that you asked. Till you make your way down to Chillz even you had fever that night. But m happy because I know you care.
Guess you had a whale of a time at barnone that night. Seeing the way you dance and cheers the night away just makes me happy as well. I wish I could make you dote on me even more now.
That evening I took a train down to grab donuts for your lil' nephew and niece and took a cab down to natas fair to look for you. You shared something about your parents. Felt so envious of you that your dad got you the bike when you told him you passed your licence. Holding on to your arm and headed home together. I love your cosy room and your bed was so nice to sleep till I never wanna wake up.
M so proud of you to have pass the tour guide licence and wanted to reward you something. Still remembered you wore the the green ralph lauren polo when I was waiting for you to be home at your house doorsteps. You were so naughty to apply the body foam on my legs. But I like, is fun.
The night you asked me over, and I went. You told me that m the one you cherish a lot. How about now?
Still remember that morning you held my hand and sent me to work. You pecked me on my face before saying goodbye. Is so sweet!
You know how worried I was when I couldn't reach you through your mobile when you were away to KL for biz trip? Finally you called back when you landed, and told me that you left the charger at home. Arghz... you know how worried sick I was?
I love to dine in your room, still remember chickren rice was aunt prepared. I had never like soup with herbs added, but with you feeding me the shi quan tang I'll drink more. Loves your lil' nephew kept disturbing you when we had steamboat lunch that afternoon. And never expect you would peel off the prawn shell for me. And thats why I wouldn't hesitate to wipe your forehead for you when you perspired though your sis-in-law was just behind us. Uncle was sitting on the floor printing his documents. If you allow, I'll get him a new printer that evening. It took way too long for one doc to be printed out. And the night you took so long to get your friend fetch me up after my k session. Because you went to get fillet-o-fish burger for me. You said you wanna feed me fat. If I grew fatter, will you still love me? The night I went over without letting you know before hand,you stir fried the prawn noodles for me. Though m not famished but will definitely finish up because you cooked it for me. You're always the one to buy food when we eat out and I always failed to finish up my portion unless you asked me to eat some more. You know I appreciated the night out to great world and movie at tiong bahru. You were exhausted but you still bother to meet me. Thanks!
Too much of happy moment with you that makes me don't understand what obstructed us.
I wish I could do something to redeem..
I hope I'll luv myself more
14:21
21 December 2008, Sunday
Just a reply...
Qin - It was like finally that I can watch R21 movie, but u sure u girls wanna watch with me? Hahas... Of course I remember those oldies daes in school, m just like a mu lao hu, =) We bully, we bullied together and we own up when mushroom asked in class. We admitted and we apologised together infront of the whole class.
Didn't know after 4 years in different secondary school, we would still met each other. To be frank, m surpriesd that you would drop letter into my letterbox. All the letters from you are still safely kept in my cupboard. I thought m only the one who will take it out to read during my free time, didn't know you too.
Though now we meet up almost every weekends, I still miss you girls.
I will cherish our 11years of friendship.
I hope we will still meet up to eat, talk and slack even when our hairs turn grey. Our friendship will be eternal. <>
Thanks for reminding me to be smart.
No wonder you acted this way when I paid for the Taboo. I just wanna grab x'mas opportunity to do a make up for your birthday. That's all. Sorry if you're angry.
Last but not least, I love you too!
Kelly, 10years of friendship we walked through all the sad and happy moment together. M always so tensed up when we were assigned group project work. Without fail, I always can't sort things out by speaking up nicely. But you girls were so tolerance enough towards my attitude. Trying and trying so hard to change my temper. Guess my temper is still bad, thats why you wrote on the card to ask me to change my temper. Hahas. I'll try my very best...
Leaving home and moved to sister place for 1.5years really do me good. Lesser dramatic family problems and able to enjoy myself after work. Hahas... always enjoyed myself when hanging out with you girls. Thanks!
Opps, I forgotten to return the oneh oneh money to you. And sorry to trouble you to make a trip up to take the oneh oneh for me when I left it on top of your cpf. Appreciate it!
Qin and Kelly, m really thankful that you girls accompanied me tonight. Had a joyful night at Qin your place. Hahas... your mom said "All grown up" yes... we've grown up, but we didn't change at all. .
You girls always endure my bad temper. Thanks for being so tolerance towards me for the past 10/11years.
BIG THANK YOU!!!
I hope I'll luv myself more
02:55
21 December 2008, Sunday
Just reach home from girlfriend place and we played Taboo together with her bro. =) A joyful night at her place, thanks!
Thanks the girlfriends for the DIY belated birthday cards will photo blog it out most probably in f'ster cuz don't wanna my blog layout goes out of shape. Their efforts in D.I.Ying the card, I saw it and m touched.
Thanks the girfriends for asking me out for dinner. U girls saw how famished I was, but m sure if m not going out, m not gonna order any deliver. I'd just cry myself to sleep after reading all the smses he sent in the past.
Zann and Hau, m sorry for not meeting you girls for dinner Sat evening. M so afraid that I do not know how to control my emotion when Zann ask "How you and Eric?"
I called this evening, I wanted to share it out. But she was outside, I couldn't help but texted her immediately when I left the girlfriends place. M so lost...
3 more days to x'mas eve, 4 more daes to x'mas. m gonna spend e nite alone.
Why m I dialing the unfamiliar no?
How long will I be in this spot before m able to move on?
if only I cld escape from the reality
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:10
20 December 2008
20 December 2008, Saturday
You walked out of my life just because you think you're not a good man. The feeling for you was so strong and do you think that m able to let go just like this? Thanks for walking through these few months that I've let go the past and moved on. Yes m able to socialise well, I want nobody BUT you.
I'm sorry that I don't keep my promise to control my emotion when I drink. I'm sorry that I always disappoint you. I thought I'd have a last chance to prove everything right to you.
I've never been like this, trying so hard to know what went wrong between us.
M stupid, I still don't understand why. M such a nuisance.
... how to, how to move on?
I hope I'll luv myself more
04:49
18 December 2008
18 December 2008, Thursday
Supposedly to have dinner with Zann but she've got to cook dinner so cancelled the meet up. Doreen was craving for dinner at Ajisen, so we had it at the bugis outlet. She feels like going to Zouk, but people who know her she loves to dress in short pant so won't be able to enter the club. Suggested a drink @ Plush Bar and yepp we were there last night
Sam joined us too, and guess we've cleared the misunderstanding between us. Looking forward to drinking with him and his friends. He left after a short while and guy thanks for the jug of beer. N thanks Miki for the cup of martell, and Bodie still owes me drink.
I saw him and the feeling so awkward. I guess I shouldn't bother him any more when it clearly shows that he don't care any more.
19 December 2008, Friday
Today ops gonna 've a dinner at no signboard seafood restaurant, really wish to go but m still having cough and flu. Gonna give it a miss.
Tomorrow meeting sis, but guess m not joining them.
Monday Emily organised a gift xchg should I go? Jac and Doreen not going. Hmm... Raffles branch RMs, donno them ley. But if I don't go for her's, afraid that she won't come for mine on Tuesday
Mom, I'd feels better if you could stop disturbing my rest.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:18
17 December 2008
17 December 2008, Wednesday
Babe thanks for your concern about us, I think we're better this way.
Left office at around 4.30pm because Eileen going for HQ meeting. Meet up with Doreen around evening time, no where to go so end up went to did my lashes. =) Luckily I gave Emily a call else she would 've left her shop.
Meet up with Doreen at Sakura for dinner and she thought too highly of her stomach. So end up both of us were xtremely bloated. Hahas.
Head home after that, chatted on phone with MD. Hahas... so cute until he attracted a gay!
JL, when you're sick go on mc. Alright thats what many asked me to. But staying at home will bored me to core! Gotta cover ORQ today and tomorrow cuz Wati on MC.
I hope I'll luv myself more
12:55
16 December 2008
16 December 2008, Tuesday
You people know JP 've got many small eatery shops so I couldn't control not to eat for dinner. I grabbed A1 promo, hahas... bump into Jasmine (his sister, my junior) and friend. Looks, she changed to a more outgoing person. Went to 77th street to get my nose studs and BYSI to get a top for my sister and a dress. =) Head home after that, and been coughing non-stop.
Finally is Tuesday and tomorrow gonna meet out with Zann and Doreen to bishan ajisen. Maybe won't be eating, see how's my throat eh?
Sore throat, cough, flu...
Mc tml can?
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:22
14 December 2008
14 December 2008, Sunday
Nice cooling weather to sleep, woke up at 11am to hang my clothes. My head so heavy and m feeling feverish. =( Tomorrow FM gonna be on leave, n I can't afford to take a day rest at home. Madness* Hope I'll feel better tomorrow when wake up.
So nice of bro to buy lunch for me. Thought this morning suppose to meet Kelly for Din Tai Fung dim sum? Hahas.
Finally there's a A1, Four leaves, Face Shop at Jurong. =D
Thought you'll forget to call.
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:57
Arghz... I lost my voice and m down with flu. Why?
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:15
13 December 2008
13 December 2008, Saturday
Fo Mei
X'mas present from Mr Marcus
Doreen and me
Me Jeff Doreen
Michelle Me Doreen @ Plush Bar 121208
Seafood platter at JP2NY
Meet up with Kelly at Jurong Point, yepp it changed whole lots. =) With so many eatery places now.
I hope I'll luv myself more
23:42
13 December 2008, Saturday
I love this entire week, for..
Monday was a public holiday
Tuesday and Wednesday m at ORQ
Thursday m back at branch but works like a dog
Friday I went to Thomson branch to cover, whew!
Saturday m back to branch working together with Rosie, my favourite officer
Sunday gonna be bored, so friends pls ask me out to party/chillz.
12 December 2008, Friday
Was at bus stop when noticed that I left my phone at home, arghz! Took cabby to work =(
Eng See seek help from Eileen, to borrow me to cover Thomson Branch as Samathe was on mc. Luckily I dragged myself to work despite of e bad cough. N m happy over there, cuz firstly Maryanne was there as CRO and learnt something new 'bout term loan from Nora. Was released early by Eng See cuz Eileen requested me to be back at branch to verify vault and to celebrate my lovely colleague Fo Mei birthday. Heh*2 shall photo blog when m home. Eileen 've got a dental appointment so she chased us back home early. =( Carried her christmas stuffs for her to the mrt station, is darn f***ing heavy!
After that meet up with Babe at Raffles to Plush Bar. I met her branch RM-Sam, eeeekkkkk... no wonder he can't out perform other Rms. Keep saying that he's not hum sup yet keep thinking of taking advantage of my friend. You told me that you'll go home rest awhile and get your car and sent her home but in the end you only cares 'bout drinking. Then sent ppl wad sms - Not that I don't want to send you home, I scare I'll do something to you. Don't because she looks like your ex gf and keep dreaming she's her okies? Idiotic guy! I respect you for you're my good friend colleague else I can't even bother to talk with you.
But on the other hand gotta thanks you, through you I get to know more drinking kakis - Eugin from standard chartered, Jeffrey and through Jeffrey get to know Sheena/Gina, Xiao Xue and Ace. Manage to get a jug of beer for free cuz Jeff won the game. Thanks, and remember my name, else you gonna give me a bottle of martell for free!
What I've got to say 'bout the e man
Eugin - He was so shy, didn't even manage to know him better
Jeff - My drinking and singing kakis, he can sings very well just a lil' too soft hahas.
Ace - Hahas love playing games with him, cuz most of the time he'd be the one drinking. =)
Nice knowing them. And really surprised that Mitch really came down. Thought without Zhi Yi she won't come. Hahas, sweeties you own me a meal for my birthday, don't forget hor. Meet up soon.
Knew that m not good in drinking beer so had martell instead. Played game and drank quite a fair bit, wasn't drunk but high. So controlled myself to stop drinking awhile. When 'bout to go back, drink the beer that Ace offered. Didn't wanna to leave so early, but looks likes two babes already resting on the table and sofa.
Thought that Doreen and Michelle they would be looking after me, but as promised them not to be drunk, I controlled my drinking. N m the one taking care of them, proud =)
Shared cabby with Michelle, m sorry babe you have got to drink when lose in the game.
So spoilt yesterday...
Cabby to work
NAC to Thomson
Thomson to NAC
Cab home after party
But spent a lot last night. But wry not, bonus was credited and m gonna pay off my billS, save up the rest. N m thinking of getting myself a saving plan. Hope can chips at least half of my pay monthly. So that I'll learn to spend wisely
Special thanks to Mr Marcus for his Christmas gift!
Seriously can't help not to think of him when the surrouding brought to me too many memories of the past. letting go will do both of us good, but guess it gonna takes more than 3years. As days flies, I love you more.
Blew the milk drink for babe @ plush bar just reminded me of 25th July how I stood outside the door blowing the hot water for you when you had a bad cough at night.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:43
11 December 2008
Never been happy ever since I joined this company. I followed her instruction but in the end she twisted her words. All along she never like me, whatever I do everything's wrong.
Alright, was texting Valencia this evening that I simply miss him yesterday evening that I gave him a buzz but he didn't pick up. I'll expect a boyfriend to return call / at least drop a sms but I still don't hear from him until now. Perhaps there's misunderstanding between us. You've a crush on me but not fall in love with me. I was once a dear*2, baby, bao bei, princess and precious to you but guess everything changed. E beginning, I don't 've to ask for a dinner/a movie/a meet up after work. Pushed away all friends plan of wanting to celebrate my birthday for me cuz thought that you'd ask me out. But disappointed to know that I've to ask from you. Recalled that evening when I had dinner with Zann at auntie restaurant at orchard tower. She showed me your sms that you'd be booking the sky dining in advance because you gonna be away on my birthday. Still remember the way she smile, the way that she felt m blessed to 've you as a boyfriend. M looking forward to that evening but it turns out to be disappointment. Thought of booking the sky dining on your birthday but m sure that you not gonna be free for me. Didn't take the risk. Wanna you to feel special on your birthday but didn't know that surprising you with a birthday cake caused phobia to you. I asked for a sms when you're at guang zhou, just wanna give you a call when you're free. But looks like... m asking too much from you.
Never had I doubt my words and m certain you're the one. But your question fails me - are you worth it?
Esther's boyfriend just said last evening, girl before the age of 25 would prefer a boyfriend who established his career. Her sister thinks that man at the age of 35 would want to settle down. Both of us think alike, but man mentality was "Why buy a cow when you can gets the milk for free". That would be the reason why girls always lose out in a r'ship. All of us think that age gap is not a problem, but the thinking.
You think that we're very diff in terms of age, characteristic and thinking. Seems like my words couldn't give you assurance. I find it a lil' tough to maintain the r'ship. Yvonne ever said "If the r'ship belongs to your's, you don't 've to try so hard to maintain" which I agreed. You might think that I treat you very nice, but in fact m nice to everyone. Like Zann said, I always go to the extra miles. 10years friends should know how nice I've been to her (Zhi Yi). But you're still different with them, cuz of you I learnt to give in. Tuesday evening Susan said: "Jialin, you don't seems to 've temper" Hahas... I flew up to the skies. 10years friend, Kelly and Qin knew what kind of person I was. =)
Walking through these four months weren't really easy. If you think that you're not a good man then leave me. I do not know how to be friend, the feeling just so awkward, so embarrassing.
"One is an American country sales manager, and the other a UK banker. Don't think anyone of her calibre is fit to comment on anything". Do you still thinks the same way?
I just wonder, would you be sorry to learn that you're the last to know that the one you once loved met in an accident and sat on the wheelchair? She needed you to be there consoling her but you didn't even bother to find out the reason why she called.
Don't make me ask you again you love me not, tell me you love me.
I hope I'll luv myself more
20:05
11 December 2008
Finally one smooth day at ORQ. Company function at ORQ townhall second level, stayed just awhile without marking my attendance. Couldn't find the attendance list, but at least I flashed my teeths to Eileen
Dinner with Emily, Sonia, Jacelyn and Doreen at Coffee Club. Usual order - Baked Rice and Mud Pie. =) Suggested a drink and din know that Emily was so onz for it. The rested joined. Wanna drink at boat quay but misty Sonia was so lazy to walk over. She suggested Harry's so yepp they had white wine while I drink beer. I think one glass of white wine is enough to make me drunk. =) Babe, you see I promise you I won't drink too much right? M safely home and checked my bag to make sure that my handphone is with me before I get out of cab. Tomorrow gonna be the same. Looking forward to party with your branch RM and SRMs.
Harry's - Reminded me the day I had lunch with Eric on his birthday.
Looking forward to 15th =) Bonus m waiting ~
Gonna head straight home this evening, gotta do laundry. If possible will photoblog.
Oh yah, I always love coming back to NAC after covering few days at ORQ. Cuz definitely will 've surprise gifts from my RMs. So this time was Joey and Celine. Joey got us M&S x'mas card. Sad that he's leaving. N Kenny, he always love disturbing me. Haix
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:01
10 December 2008
10 December 2008
Meet up with Zann last evening after work, aww... she was late n I complaint. Was staring at the blank realised that I've change a lot especially being together with him. Used to be a very demanding, bad-tempered girl changed to a girl who give in everything. Used to hate people being late for meet up, changed to a girl who don't mind waiting for an hour or even longer. Sis you remember that night that I waited at your void deck for more than an hour? That evening you forgotten our meet up for dinner at AMK NY. If it is few years back I would 've left after waiting for more than 10mins. I've changed..
Accompanied sis to shop for a birthday present for Lawrence. N sis got him a Mont Blanc wallet that cost her a pretty penny. =) Felt so envious of him to 've a wife who takes great care of the family. A wife who loves him and lil' baby so much. A wife who's willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of them. Ah haa ~ I'll be the same as her... just that m not good enough to take care of the baby.
Supper at taka coffee club, the baked rice that the waitress recommended was not as nice as the one I had it previously. N I preferred the Calamari rings at Swensen. Should try out the one at DeliF that sis recommended. But I loved their mud pie, is so yummilious. Sis laughted at me when I finished up the entire, cuz I kept asking her (eat leh)*2, very nice ley. She didn't eat much, m the one who ate up all. =)
Sis thanks for being there for me.
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:16
09 December 2008
9 December 2008, Tuesday
Received Eileen sms this morning, asked me to head straight to ORQ cuz Doris needs help. Get to know that Wati & Jac on MC. Sighs. To be frank, m having diarrhea since mid night and this morning but the thought of seeing a doctor doesn't come across my mind. I just wonder how sick they are. I felt like seeing a doctor and go on MC as well. But of course I didn't, I felt unbearable to see Step & Susan struggling with their works. They had been nice to me.
Told FM that I rather they place me there for the entire 3months since Melissa on maternity leave. Rather than throwing me here and there.
Get to know from granny that 4th uncle & family went to Korea for holiday. Felt so envious of lil cousin Regina. Hahas..
I hope I'll luv myself more
09:43
08 December 2008
7 December 2008, Sunday
Cousin sis gave me a morning call at 7.30am not dare to sleep for another min cuz if m late granny gonna go crazy. Hahas. Guess all the bus drivers died on Sunday morning, I waited for 20mins before it arrived. -.-" Thought cousins gonna reached earlier than me, asked 'em to grab me a cup of Mr Bean with pearl but they were late. Reached Vivo and had our breakfast at FRepublic. N I ate the otah toast, aww... it taste so*3 yummi. Took monorail in to Siloso Beach. Yey yea they went there sun tanning, playing volleyball in the water. Aww.. how I wish I could join them. Well, the next time eh? M sure onz with it. Realised that cousins were so fortunate to 've granny tagging along with them, cuz she cooked lunch for them. She brought breads for them, she looks after their belongings under the sun while they were happily playing. If I were them, I'll not ask granny along. Cuz I'll never ask granny to look after my stuffs while I enjoy. I'll rather bring her for a walk at the park and restaurant to 've dim sum. N granny feels like renting the resort near siloso beach for a week. Hmm... .
Left the place at around 1.30pm cuz scare lil' Joshua will catch a cold if gonna stay a lil' longer. Went back to FR to 've our dinner and yepp thats end of the outing. Cousin BZhen went to work while Byi and the boyfriend sent Joshua home. I left with no choice but to walk granny home, though m feelin exhausted.
Had a shower and took a nap before I went to Jasmine birthday party. Reached her place at about 9.30pm. Her mom said: "Today, you came late". Hahas. You peeps know something? I loves going to her place cuz her mummy dotes on me very much. Every year CNY her mummy will definitely say must invite JL over. Hahas... and I loves her 3 younger sister. Jane described me - the one her handwriting looks like type writer. Jobe - the one who works at ocbc. Janne - the one from orchestra. Hahas... I love her family, the next target will be her dad. I wanna talk with him! I feel so homely ~ Hope we're still in touch with each other when you shifted to BB.
Reached home round 2am, had my shower and sis came into my room to chit chat with me. This morning suppose to accompany sis for shopping but m still so sleepy when lil' niece came in umpteen times to wake me up. An hour later, I woke up and locked the door. But she still tried her best to wake me up by standing outside the door and shouted "Ah yi, ah yi wake up and go shopping quick!"
I only manage to get up from bed when they went out. Did my laundry and had my shower and m here blogging.
Glad that today's PH. Cuz the weather is so nice to sleep but m sneezing. =(
Ppl reading this entry, take goody care.
I hope I'll luv myself more
16:27
06 December 2008
6 December 2008, Saturday
Woke up at noon time, went shower and did my laundry. Cleaned up my room, everything's in apple pie order =)
Nothing much just that I miss him
::+: 19:20 :+:
I hope I'll luv myself more
19:16
05 December 2008
5 December 2008, Friday
Always love to be quoted by Bernice in her blog TGIF! And m having this Saturday off, woohoo~ Can have a good rest and tidy up my room. =)
M at ORQ today and m stressed up by all the exchange rates. Is driving me nuts but I lovesss it.
I need to meet up with girlies! Zann for dinner and KQ for chillz.
:+: I miss Mr Eric @ 11.15am :+:
Manage to leave at 6pm to meet up with sis. Texted and called her but she didn't reply. Around 7pm+ she replied that she totally forgotten 'bout it. Hmm... what a 'good' sis. =P She rushed all the way to AMK NY to meet me, feel bad. But sis, seriously if you gonna tell me that it's gonna rain and you're not coming. M perfectly fine with it, cuz don't wanna you and lil' Malcom to get drench. Appreciated that you rushed all the way out just to meet me for dinner. Thanks!
Without fail, sis will always wanna got to NTUC. Hahas... As ususl she bought lots of coco and tibits. But she's still so skinny. Haa... Bought her coco for x'mas present and she bought one for me too. She knew that I love the cookies and cream coco, she got it for me but forgotten to pass it to me. =D Keep it for me lor...
Took cabby home, hmm... thought we gonna walk home together. Miss chatting on the way home
Thought meeting KQ up to chillz but Qin went MIA. Then m tired, so texted Kelly that most probably meet up some other day. Sorries.
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:24
04 December 2008
:+: Sorrie Bestiex :+:
My sincere apologise to best friend Kelly. Thought the list in your blog is an entry, so thought that you didn't update your blog. Just read those entries and realised that my words hurt n disappoint you. M sorries for being so demanding, unreasonable and selfish, I only think about myself while you thought about our safety. Thanks!! But hor, must have confident in driving mah ~ =D With Qin to be your road directory. Ha haa...
Once again m thankful for you being so tolerant towards my attitude not just that evening but for the past 10years? Never had you vent your anger on me. Thanks for being such a great friend. No wonder my mom loves you so much. Haa
Kelly, way to go for your projects n exam!
Looks like I can't ps you girls this friday =)
I hope I'll luv myself more
13:27
4 December 2008, Thursday
Didn't meet up with Jacelyn for shopping, she was feeling unwell. Hopefully she feels better tomorrow so that she can enjoy her KL trip with the boyfriend.
Cleanly forgotten that Eric pass me 100bucks on his birthday when we had lunch together. Shit... only remember when I was telling FM 'bout that day at ORQ. Haha... sms him wanted to drop by his office just to return him the money but he didn't reply. So shall return him back when he's back from his biz trip. That gonna be mid of Dec...
Darling sis, you received your parcel? The staff at post office told me it only takes 2 to 3 working days to deliver. Hmm... remember hor the candies is Eric got it for you from sydney.
Sighs. I'm just so sick of all BOMs in this company. Why they treated my friend that way?
Alrighty, gotta read my mails. Sians ~
:+: I miss Mr Eric @ 10:37am :+:
I hope I'll luv myself more
10:26
03 December 2008
3 November 2008, Wednesday
I'm so bored at work, I miss stationed at ORQ! Hopefully this Friday 'll be going over to cover Jacelyn. =D
Thought next weekend gonna join Kelly and friends to Melaka, but I gotta work. Kelly asked me to swap duty with FM. But then I don't like working with EF. So... gotta give it a miss. =(
Hopefully ORQ finish their work asap this evening so that Jacelyn, Doreen and I can meet up for shopping!
Sighs
I hope I'll luv myself more
11:25
02 December 2008
2 Novemeber 2008, Tuesday
Early in the morning reached branch she nagged @ me. -.-" Pissed off, ruined my mood. Whole day do things so moodless. Can't be bother by anything surround me. She can overlook thing, we can't. That's her... KNS. How I wish the arrival of 18th Dec cuz she gonna be on long leave, won't see her until next year. Don't wanna see a sight of her! People being nice buy things for her to eat, she still give attitude. She's the mother-fucker.
Raining cats and dogs outside, just wondering precious whereabout. If he's outside meeting client, afraid that he got wet.
Sighs, is end day of work... another day pass. Precious gonna be away for biz trip for another half a month. =(
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:37
01 December 2008
1 December 2008, Monday
Surprised that I wasn't being call back to ORQ as Susan is on MC. Guess m too slack at NAC that I make mistakes and mistakes.
CRO gonna be on leave on the 26th so FM said either one of us gotta cover her. She rather either one of us to go on leave. So she forced me to take leave on the 26th. She said in a joking manner: "My mood is good after X'mas don't wanna see a sight of you. Go on leave." Haha... thx thx for giving me the long weekends. Thank you.
Guess FM make a mistake, she thought that m off on 27th Dec but m on duty. But she said if m going for holiday she don't mind exchanging duty with me. So holiday, anyone?
Heh*2, can't wait for the 15th cuz bonus is here! Thee n m planning how much bonus to give my mom. Guess this and next month m gonna be shopping crazily. Jan gonna get our incentive plus accured allowance!
Alright, gotta get changed and home sweet home. Guess m gonna grew fat at NAC. So free that I kept munching junk foods.
Peeps, take goody care ~
I hope I'll luv myself more
17:38
1 December 2008, Monday
Is 12:24am is Monday again. 3 more days Mr Eric gonna be away for biz trip for 'bout 2weeks n m gonna miss him badly once more.
30 more days before the arrival of 2009, looks how fast time flies.
Do I sound like m sad? Haha... alrighty.
Been sleeping from 10pm to 1pm since Saturday night. Sis came into the room and asked if I wanna go out to 've lunch with them and also to do some shopping. To be frank, I wish to but looking at the laundry basket with clothes piling up, I gotta give it a miss. Besides, I spent way too much these few days. Gotta save be it just a buck, a penny saved is a penny earned.
Saw Kelly's sms when out from the bathroom. She needs me to look through her proposal for her school project. N I took 'bout 7hours to edit just a lil'? In between went to do my laundry otherwise my clothes won't be dry in the evening. Hopefully I help at least 0.01% hees.
Then promised Valencia a photo blog so gotta post a photo blog entry. =) Informed her when m done with it. She asked where's Mr Eric's photo... haha... is not inside my phone. Hopefully one fine day m able to photo blog the guy who melts my heart.
I love your smile, it simply adores me me. M stupid, you saw how clumsy I was when using chopsticks right? How nice if you really feed me with the noodles. How nice if you hugged me in the pub when m cold. How nice if we could go back home together. N you to prepare omelette's for me before I go to work. Will that day come?
Precious, m speechless for you being so caring. You always keep an eye of my mobile when I leave it on the table at the pub and walked off to the ladies. Always kept my phone with you when I don't even bother to. Attitude me when I don't take care of myself when I drink. Didn't know that you were so worried sick 'bout my handphone that you called Zann in the middle of the night just to get my house no. Rang my house up at late hour, don't you afraid that my family will scold you for disturbing us? You said that you'll wait for my call when I got my phone back. But sms you, you didn't reply. =) Must be aslept. Yes, sms only beeps twice. But a buzz will wakes you up from your sugardream, which I felt unbearable. M happy that you called on Saturday morning when m at work. Haix... =) Don't buy me any more gift that gonna cost a pretty penny. Thanks for the Mont Blanc wallet, I loves it lot!
Sorry sis, didn't know that you been waiting for me to call. Gosh, I miss the lotus soup that you prepared for me. Hmm... when gonna be the next time?
Dear friends, way to go for all the projects and exam. Valencia must be burning mid night oil for her exam tomorrow. Hais... dearies don't do any more last min revision can?
Though this year didn't celebrate my birthday. But m happy to receive all the gifts. N just got to know from Kelly's that she prepare a birthday card for me. But incomplete... heh heh... i'll let her off cuz she gotta rush for her projects. I'll bark her for it on the last day of her term break. Hees... and Qin I'm looking forward to the day that you gonna pass me my belated birthday present hor. Cuz you yourself said that is different with X'mas present. X'mas will 've another one. Haha... I hold your words to it.
M happy to 've my family with me. I love my mom, sis and bros.
M happy to 've good friends-Kelly n Qin to be with me
M happy to 've friends like Doreen and Valencia
M happy to 've colleagues like FM, Jacelyn, Step, Wati, Susan, and Rosie
M happy to 've darling Zann and Malcom
M happy to 've precious Mr Eric
M contended to 've them in my life
Don't know why, I just miss the boyfriend so much that I couldn't get to sleep.
Doreen and boyfriend had a tiff? Don't know how to say. Maybe you too used to his accompaniment. When he asked you to wait for him at home you'll feel that he changed. Hmm... give him a lil' freedom okies? You know something? Not all things he will feel comfortable to share with you. So friends might be the one he shared his problems with.
Then Valencia boyfriend always put her high up in the sky with hopes and promises but all these are white lies. Sighs... another workaholic. Don't be a blind guy, she's definitely a girl worth your love. Cherish her...
Thats about all. Night
I hope I'll luv myself more
00:24
